Im in love with an angel

2009-05-19T18:40:00.002+08:00

finally finished all my tests... but exams will be here in around 3 mre wks... sian... POS was gd but beverage killed all of us... dam zzzzzz but it was quite fun during the lessons when the lecturer was swearing in french and we didnt noe wad he was saying then stupid sharul followed suit by using wine names and making them sound like vulgarites... eg: u papa mama merlot!!! LOLOLOL oh well... gona post something in couple blog and im gona slp already

2009-05-17T01:58:00.002+08:00

woohoo!!! hme sweet hme! =p... aft bday party went prawning wif baby and sharon... lol spent like 2 hrs there and caught 2 prawns... will main thing is baby's happy =) hahaha later gona chiong studying for tues le... then nite time gg to changi airport wif baby to send her fren off... had a great time 2day... hope my love did too... dun ask why im typing so lil again LOOL

2009-05-16T00:14:00.002+08:00

woohoo!!! comm skills test 2day!!! if i dun get an A for it... i will chop my head! hehe... spent the nite at bao bao's hse again... at least i gt study abit b4 i went to sch >< this few days really bz... 2day gg to baby's cousin's bf's bday in the aftnn at dwntwn east but baby gota go back to her frens in the evening =( tot of gg escape theme park wif her... but oh well... some other time then... gota do up my notes for the 2 tests on tues and project asap... sian... i feel dam lazy and fked up wif the grp nw == oh well lazy to say much... blog later or tml =)

2009-05-13T23:38:00.002+08:00

woohoo~~~ jus a quick post cos my bro wans to use the net... went over to fajar ytd to study wif baby... well kinda ended up lazing around as usual >< but at least i gt study hor!!! the test was alright bah... F&B Ops 2day... friday will be comm skills... quite easy.. have only around 3 pages to memorise... then the terror will come on tues... principal of supervision and bev on the same day == siao liao... those 2 are the worst man...

anyway, baby has revived our cpl blog wif lotsa pics and words hahah...gd job baby!!! muacks! do ask me for the url if ur interested =) erm gosh i duno wad else to say... i love you baby!!! see u tml!! <333s

2009-05-11T23:45:00.004+08:00

well went out to tamp 1 wif bao bao 2day... had a great time there didnt we hunn? bought my clothes and walked around all the shoppings centres... had lunch at "Kopitian by Kopitiam" LOL then carried on walking around... soon aft decided to catch a movie so we watched "The Ramen Girl" hmm the shw was average bah... its like wad a chef will really face when he/she works under a famous chef LOL... aft movie went to eat sushi wif baby for dinn then went hme le haha... well, we'll be posting up stuffs on our cpl blog real soon... do ask me for the url if u wana share our happiness =)

2009-05-11T03:16:00.006+08:00

omg look at the time!! i fell aslp at around 11 jus nw and woke up to talk to baby... gg to tampines 1 for a walk later =) im supposed to be studying nw... but ive spent almost 1hr searching for smth for baby... finally found it... hope she appreciates it =/ gona start mugging le... make myself a cup of coffee 1st then chiong all the way already =( hmm better start nw if nt i wont have much time left... blog mre 2nite if i can... bye all... carry on having ur sweet dreams =)

2009-05-09T23:28:00.002+08:00

weee~~~ so much to blog abt yet i cant rmb much of em.... shall start wif sch... slightly stressed up abt it nwadays cos of all the tests.. wa lao memorise till my brain gg burst... took pics of mre new born kittens... 1 of em has spots LOL... dam cute lo!!! haha shall try to bring 1 hme sumday.... cant bear to seperate em frm their mum tho =/

baby came to my hse ytd nite to watch dvds tgt and spend quality time... watched marley and me which i fell aslp cos i was quite tired.... then sent her hme in the morn... came hme to bathe and went out to tampines to look for mummy aft tat... wanted to get a pair of jeans and t-shirt frm Uniqlo but mummy say too expensive == she say jeans might as well get frm levis so we went to see cos she didnt believe me tat levis is much mre ex... price tag at Levis: $159
Gene: see i told u levis mre ex...
Mummy: hahahaha (walks away) ==
so because of this... dad's gona gime $$ to go shopping wif baby on mon... gg back to uniqlo to get my clothes... no offence to them but some of them quite normal dun really impress me... the jeans are nice tho... shirts only a handfull caught my eyes =/

baby's nw hme frm a wedding dinner... cant wait to talk to her... =p baby nxt paragraph is a lil smth abt us.... lazy to do it in our cpl blog =p

while watching the wedding game in mummy's rm... i kept thinking abt the 1st time we went to watch a movie tgt... same movie... row F seat 15 and 16 if nt wrg... tat was when we 1st kissed, hugged and held hands... i still rmb hw happy we both were... and yes i rmb wad i cooked for u too... mashed potatoes, omelette and nuggets haha... u came straight frm dragon boat on tat dayin ur black dress... still rmb hw pissed off i was at the taxi driver for making u late... at least we still made it for the movie LOL... i was so carried away wif all these tots tat i missed out like 15 mins of the movie in mummy's rm jus nw =p... i love u baby... wo de bao bao... ai si ni le.... <33s

meet for studies tml and tampines on mon? hehe <33s bye all~~~

2009-05-07T01:24:00.002+08:00

omg laziness is killing me... no matter hw much i slp i still feel like slping even mre... in my rm studying for kitchen organisation test tat will be in a few hrs... drinking coffee to perk me up and smoking to ease myself... oh god!!! sum1 save me... mre test to come in the following weeks... i feel so fked up nw == i already studied for this test on sun jus tat it was postponed to later... and i 4gt everything!!! nw gota start all over again... motivate me pls!! T_T

EDITED AT 530AM:
woohoo!!! 530 am!!! ive finished memorising everything tat i had to =) *sigh of relief* test later aft pastry stuff... seriously no idea why we still have to learn pastry altho we're western chefs == chefs as in those doing hot side nt pastries == oh well anyway, willl try to blog 2nite... bye all~~~ =D

ps. baby jy wor!!! i love u loads... miss you alot T_T

2009-05-05T01:57:00.002+08:00

erm.. dun really noe wad to say... 1. cos i totally 4gt everything... 2. im lazy =x jus decided to type some stuff so tat my blog doesnt collect dust haha... sian i wana find part time job but baby and mummy disagree cos im studying.. their right but i hate to feel peniless == or however u spell tat word... oh well... shall jus concentrate on my studies 1st then... kinda slpy nw actually but gona chat wif baby over the phone soon... gona accompany her while she study for her paper tat will starrt in a few hrs....

jy wor bao bei... u can do it! and wtf my test ytd (mon) was cancelled and we only had a 1 and a half hr class cos all classes aft tat were cancelled == so off i went to west mall to buy my zippo gas for the new belt i jus belt... its kinda cool... the buckle is actually a zippo lighter... gtit for $60 bucks... 2nd hand but nt used b4... and yes ive checked tat its nt used b4... no scratches no stretch marks on the punch hole.. lighter nt lighted b4 and etc... hahaha... gona start wearing tat belt frm nw on... its uber convenient when i wana smoke hahahah... oh well... gona check if my hp has finished charging then call my wifey already... cya all!

2009-05-01T19:15:00.002+08:00

yawn~ spent the nite out wif baby studying and i couldnt really concentrate cos i was quite tired then i kept falling aslp ><>< doing "spring cleaning" for the hse helping all of them but no1 wans to clean my rm wif me T_T

nvm maybe tml or 2nite i solo humph! eh duno wad to say leh... kitchen organisation test on mon... i haven even started... kitchen organisation assignment to be passed up in 1 wk+ and we haven started... die le lo lidat LMAO.... nvm lah 1 die all die ==

duno wad to say already very lazy this few days =/ bye all

EDITED AT 1AM:
as i was looking at those pics... i asked myself... hw come i nvr see u this happy anymre? as i tot abt it... i reallised tat my existence is jus a burden to u... i realise tat i really shouldnt be here... ive stopped u frm doing so many things u wan for ur own gd... but wad abt ur smile... im always happy when i see ur smile.... but maybe its time i sacrifice even mre so tat u can smile for urself... haiz...

2009-04-29T21:20:00.003+08:00

ahh!!! weather too freaking hot!!! i feel like im melting! dammit... *chows dwn a bucket of ice* sch 2day was rather boring.. lessons were too dry... anyway, aft 1 yr ive finally gotten my wsq food hygiene cert!!! waited 1 yr for it aft our paper == im officially a qualified food handler!!! wakakakaka... took pics of the kittens again... dam their so cute... lols... went to derrick's hse aft sch to do project... played wif mandy and pudding again... then came back hme le... haha

shyt man i seriously have no idea wad to type... i feel so freaking lazy.... oh well... shall jus stop here then...

EDITED AT 1007PM:
thx to baby i rmb smth tat i wana rant abt... i wanted a new laptop so of cos i had to ask dad's permission... so nt only did he say no... he gave me his... well most of u would think... at least i have 1 rite? but omg!!! his is too freaking big and hard to use... dun wana get into mre details... but the tot of me using it at some crowded place makes me really emo... anyway... im using his lappy nw to do this edited post... its still in gd condition... i guess =/ oh well... gota get back to configuring his stuffs to suit my needs =x

2009-04-28T23:58:00.001+08:00

weee~~~~ sry guys didnt blog ytd... went over to baby's hse overnight to accompany her study.... my kesien bao bei... so stressed up... im here for u my love... hmm had fun in sch 2day during beverage lesson hahahaha... new names learnt =x carbanet sauvignon is pronouced as (carbanay sowvineon) and stuff lidat hahahah... gt boring aft awhile tho... then went to fetch hunn frm her sch as her 1st exam paper starts 2day... then came to my hse and relax then send her hme le....

gg to sch on my own tml cos dad got stuff to do early in the morning... wanted to get a new laptop... when mum helped me to tell dad abt it, he say gime his... im like WTF!!! a 3 yr old laptop wif buttons spoilt, lotsa viruses, HUGE and 3 kg at least... sian... nvm i shall buy my own 1 once i start attachment =)

well tats all i gota say.. gona check out my cpl blog =) bye all!

2009-04-26T11:29:00.005+08:00

wahahaha blogeh~ =x well went out for project ytd at derrick's had a gd time there wif his new doggy's(the pic below =D)had a cpl of drinks aft tat and i bet they had a gd time making me drink 21 633 ml's =.= went str8 hme aft tat and watched the "Seed of Chucky" nt as scary as the ones i watched when i was young tho =\ then went online and did nth and fell aslp on the sofa aft tat ><

haha pudding on the right and mandy on the left they're shitzu's if nt wrg

Pic of 1 of the cats in sch i was supposed to shw honey =) they're so freaking small i jus wana bring em hme =p

and hey peeps me and baby's cpl blog is finally complete wif a few posts... do visit us if u can and feel free to ask me for the url =)

tats all peeps cya!

ps. ive taken off the music as imeem only allows music tats taken off frm their website to be played for only 30 secs... will add new music soon... thx

EDITED AT 1120 PM:
was supposed to go for kor kor's bday celebration but went out wif pei fen instead... talk to me abt some stuff then went off for a movie.... overall was ok... met her new "future bf" then chat abit nw hme le...

sian baby i miss u alot... haiz.. .nvm shall say the rest in our cpl blog... cya

2009-04-24T20:31:00.003+08:00

woohoo!!! cpl blog 3/4 done!!! left baby's particulars LOL... those who wana noe the link tag me in this blog 1st and i'll give it to u in privacy =)

wahahah ytd baby's bday... aft sch i went to fetch her at imm where she was studying wif her frens and we headed off to holland v. ate at fosters and had a few drinks there... then came to my hse cos baby needed to copy her notes and return to her fren this morn...

hmm jus came back frm the doc's food poisoning >< nw doing customizing for the cpl's blog then nth to do le... didnt go to sch 2day =\ well tats all im gona say... bye all!

baby~~ hope u enjoyed ur bday... love u loads muacks!

2009-04-23T01:47:00.001+08:00

woohoo!!! bz creating me and baby's cpl blog... lazy to blog anything else.. should be done in a few days... gona at least do the html 1st then slp =x baby dun kill me wor... <33s

2009-04-21T00:46:00.004+08:00

sry tat ive nt blogged for the past few days... admit i was kinda lazy >< hehe so here's wad happened the past few days...

frm thurs onwards was rushing for baby's 21st bday party last sat so i couldnt really blog as well... her party turned out jus fine... tho it was kinda quiet for awhile during the games, other stuff went out fine... jus tat the cake i baked and made for her kinda melted =.= yes ur eyes i nt tricking u... i baked a caked and decorated it for the 1st time in my life... the only time when i baked a cake was in sec sch F&N where we baked jus a sponge cake... i was quite proud of the cake i baked for baby actually =x jus tat it melted =.= haha hope ur satisfied wif ur party hunn... so anyway, her actual bday is this thurs the 23th... im gona celebrate again and i have some small stuffs up my sleeves *winks* hahahah

god damned ive been slping in class like no tml... luckily i still managed to copy the impt stuff if nt im dead for sure... no idea why im so tired nwadays... sch has been great aft the day i quarreled wif tat maggot... still crapping like mad wif my mates and chilling out tgt during break times...

mervie~~~ where on earth are u? no emails, no phone calls frm u... getting worried already... hope ur having fun wif u lao po in jap/korea... ur travelling almost everywhere in tat region anyways =.=

well tats mre or less of wad i gota blog... cant really recall anything else...

btw, i love u baby.. wo de zui ai =) pls rest mre and drink gallons of water... uve nt been feeling well recently... love u! *tight hugs and kisses*

EDITED AT 124AM:
same person same problem wif only 1 word to describe : bitch! u can hate me for nt minding my own business... but honestly look at the mess u've created urself... whether u see my blog or nt i dun really care... god damn u seriously treat all of em the same way... wake up!!! seriously wake up!!!! hw many times do u wana do it over and over again... think abt why anna would say all these... dun jus blame urself or say tat tats u like u would say it to me almost all the time in the past... do smth abt b4 its too late... ur right tat its none of my business... but seriously... b4 u scold me.. think abt urself 1st then lecture me

2009-04-15T19:17:00.003+08:00

i dun wana say much... jus wana let it all off my mind... nt been able to slp well for the past few days... the nite tat i posted my last post i smked the nite away... last nite i couldnt slp at all jus thinking abt it...

went to sch 2day and almost missed out every lesson... at least i did take the effort to get up and take dwn some notes... and smth tat made me very pissed off during pastry lesson which was me and sum1 almost getting into a fight... like wad the fk lo... u wan use cannon why dun wan admit tat u talk all those rubbish? scared lose face? the whole class noes tat all the cannons in sentosa can belong to u already lo... for god's sake wake up lah... talk so much rubbish u think we're all 3 yr old kids? nw all exposed and all u dare to confront is me? since u think im easy to be bullied then why did u pull back ur punch? dun talk so much jus to make ppl think ur a big fk by lying... ppl only respect u when things u do are facts and are true... LOL 3 martels at 1 shot, father buy aeroplane, gt 1 mil in ur bank... PUI ah!!! u gt 1 mil in ur bank last time still borrow $ and take ciggs frm me... u wana fight bring it on anytime... but b4 u do it... reflect on urself 1st u fking moron... use ur fking brains... if u still insist then i can assure u, u'll get wad u wan... im in sch everyday and we're in the 1st class... dun dare to come and dun dare to admit... jus go honggan lah hor _l_

haiz... since u still choose to go... i wont stop u... since u can take care of urself then i wont worry for u... jus dun get drunk... jus dun make me lose trust in u... im tired i dun wana talk abt u gg clubbing... u noe i dun like it but since its ur frens bday and u think ur gona be fine and can make sure tat all those things i told u im afraid of wont happen then go bah... i wont stop u anymre

2009-04-14T00:48:00.002+08:00

sch ended at 12pm 2day(13 apr) so i decided to celebrate me and baby's 2nd mth celebration earlier since i'll be having a full day of sch the nxt day... hahaha we had fun bah... rite baby? hmm we came to my hse for a short while and headed off to town cos baby wanted to cut her hair... and baby i nvr say ur hair nt nice hor!! =p ur always beautiful to me =x aft tat we tried shopping for her clothes and i noe i was rather demanding abt the clothes of her choice sry hunn... aft tat we walked around and slacked then headed hme le...

happy 2 mths anniversary my dear... i love u loads <333

EDITED AT 116AM:
haiz baby jus told me she wana go clubbing wif her frens this fri... i duno hw to tell her no this time... she was already at my blog so i suppose she wont see this.. i really dun like her gg clubbing... nt tat i dun like.. but i'll get very worried, insecure and uneasy but aft tat nite at her fren's chalet... i guess i gota force myself to say yes knowing i dun like it at all... well aft all its jus for 1 day rite? i hope =\ haiz... mood go dwn le...

2009-04-09T20:51:00.004+08:00

Hi all!!! i noe ive nt been bloggig these days but i have my reasons lo... im too tired the moment i reach hme which is like 1+ everyday despite gg to sch early in the morn... hehehe... anyway... 2day is DCS0708 A class' 1st pastry lesson and these are our end products... take note of the 1st pic >< wahahahah its supposedly tit-fuck but 1 of the boobs gt eaten bt sharul =x enjoy~~~

hahahahahha hope u liked the pics... hmm bao bei lao po is sick nw.. .hope u'll get better soon my love... tc of urself wor.. ive been super bz wif sch and baby's 21st bday... altho alot of things have been leaked out to her, there's still alot tat she doesnt noe =x k lah nt alot... jus hw we're gona do the place and things tat we've gt up our sleeves... *winks* hahahah well im gona get back to doing her stuffs le... cya all!!!

2009-04-07T01:10:00.002+08:00

wahahaha 1st day of sch ytd since its already tues... hmmm it was rather fun actually haha... crapped alot and too much to get into the details... all the lessons ended in like 30 mins except for IT... think tml oso the same bah =p 1st 2 days of sch always lidat de =\

went str8 to imm aft sch to look for baby... went to get some stuff there while she study... then send her hme aft tat... the best part was when we were on the way hme ahahah... shall nt get into details LOL...

well tats all... nw waiting for my hp to charge... gota wake up at around 630 later... LOL bye all!!!

2009-04-04T18:46:00.002+08:00

slept for only 2 hrs for the whole day... im already all stressed up and nw u wana tell me ur gona spend the nite overnite wif only the most 2 handfull of ppl tat u noe and the rest u duno? u already noe hw i feel when ur gona have alchohol and u still wana do this... fk it lah... im already stressed enuf and tired... i dun wana get over worried for u if nt u say im over restricting u again... jus do wad u thing is rite bah... im really tired le...

for god's sake ur a gal... and u noe wad will happen when u slp de... yet im already allowing u to drink as long as u will control urself... nw u still wana spend the nite wif ppl u duno at some ulu place... pls baby pls think of hw i feel... i dun wana nag and so on le...

2009-04-03T14:06:00.006+08:00

hehe woke up at around 12... lie on bed till 1 then gt up did some of baby's bday stuff while i enjoy breakfast ( kueh lapis and coffee) hahaha... very long nvr relax lidat le... then nw using com singng out loud wif the music tat im blasting... Currently playing : Time of My Life - David Cook LOLOLOLOLOL hahaha wad to do my baby studying so i find things t do lo... hehe...

honey~~~~~ im glad tat my holiday was nt in vain... im glad we still get to meet whether it was long or short... i love u baby... ur bday in 3 wks wor.... hahaha excited nt? *winks*

well im gona go get back to some researching and bday preparations for my baby princess... i love u hunn...

EDITED AT 252PM:
woohoo currently playing: sol y arena-jadiel feat.tito up next: Girls -beenie man feat akon. LOLOLOLOLOL ive gt like 200 songs playing nw =x but gg out fetch baby fr sch soon... we're either gg orchard or bugis... and i jus finished my hme cooked udon LOL... dam full le... shall take a half an hr nap and out i go =) bye peeps! i'll blog again 2nite =)wahahah currently playing: BG & The Chopper City Boyz - Make Em Madd LOL k lah bye all

EDITED AT 1AM:
hmm im hme le... went town wif baby and her 2 frens... had dinn at hk cafe... then me and baby went towards cine and watched "The Unborn" hmm overall nt bad... scary enuf for its genre... storyline nt bad too... and yes i gt freaked out afew times myself hahahaha... so aft the shw we headed hme... was supposed to send baby hme but both of us scared i noe bus back as usual ><

guess wad!!! ive nt smked for 2 days le and my temper is like %*^%&^$&^#&%*^$#@@#@#! LOL... sry baby tat u had to see me like this... at least im quitting rite? =/ and baby... sry tat im kinda broke nwadays if nt we can do mre things and go hme late wifout having to wry abt nt having public transport... can jus take cab =x hmmm sry if im over restricting u... but im glad u understand why... hope u have fun tml as long as u assure me tat nth will happen to u then im fine bah... love u loads...

well tats all i gota say... nite peeps! have a gd day =)

p.s ladies and gentlemen... sry bout my phrasing and speling errors cos i type wad comes to my mind... didnt really bother to phrase em properly and so on =x

EDITED AT 240AM:
~~sometimes i jus wish u would put urself in my shoes and think of wad and hw im thinking abt things so tat u would noe hw im feeling and why im doing things accodring to those feelings~~ sigh

2009-04-02T07:13:00.002+08:00

lol hi peeps yes i noe it would take me a miracle to blog this early in the morning... well its actually cos im at baby's hse nw... she's slping while i finished editing her project for her around half an hr ago? hmmm so while she slps i gt nth to do... think i might go hme b4 she's up cos im really tired too... kept waking up to see her aslp... hahaha...

lao po... have a gd rest k? hubby loves u... tml friday le... we'll see if we can meet bah... if canot then nvm =) love u loads my dear...

2009-04-01T01:07:00.004+08:00

i jus wana scream out loud nw... i wish u would appreciate and understand things im doing for u and why im doing certain things... im really tired already... and yet i spend all my time and energy jus to be wif u... jus to shw u i really love u... yes im sry tat i had to lie and u already noe why... but uve been talking to me like this for 2 wks +- already... why? can u tell me why? is it because u hate me? is it because u dun wana talk to me? is it because of other reasons? pls tell me why... i really really wana scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-03-31T18:02:00.004+08:00

yea im hme.. and yes i retook my practical... but guess wad? i didnt do well yet again... i duno why... haiz baby i really need u by my side... but knowing tat ur disappointed in me, i duno hw to face u... chef when u asked me wad is wrg wif me i really didnt noe hw to ans... and knowing tat im 1 of ur best i noe and i could see frm ur expression tat ur disappointed too... im starting to wonder once again if im really meant be in this line... im starting to wonder once again... who wouldnt be disappointed and encourage me even mre at times like this... the only person is u but ever since last yr could no longer be my side... things have changed wifout u telling me wad to do when every1 is bz, disappointed or couldnt be bothered abt me...

baby i really wish ur here to hug me and tell me tat everything's alright... im really sry tat i let u dwn... i really am... haiz... wad else can i say wad else can i do? im dwn wif extreme fever nw but i decided nt to tell baby jus in case i distract her frm her project... i wana rest but i cant lie in peace knowing tat ive done badly twice... letting my fiance, my chef and my parents dwn when they had exceptionally high hopes on me... im sry every1... i really sry...

lao po wo zhen de bu zhi dao zen me mian dui ni le... wo dui bu qi ni... sigh... cant seem to smile anymre.. im really tired le...

EDITED AT 645PM:
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lyin' here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered (the time when both of us started on 14 feb *typed by myself)
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

aft reading 2days post as well as ytd's i think all of u would realise why i decided to change to this song...

2009-03-31T01:26:00.002+08:00

well i guess i have no reason to say tat im lazy or too bz to blog anymre... work experience has ended on sat... nw back to sch... ytd (mon) was my practical exam and the chef wans me to retake in a few hrs cos its nt up to standard and according to him "it sucks" so yea i gota retake...

i having tat memory loss thingy again... ken pls dun be angry wif me le... its nt tat those memories were nt precious... they were and they still are... jus tat im really getting fking 4getful and stuff... pls forgive me... merv in korea/jap then u ignore me then i emo le hw? beside mabia u will always crap wif me to cheer me up de lo... i noe u'll come to my blog le... call me like u always do k?

bad headache rite nw... duno why... dun really wana think much b4 the bigger pain comes back... which is already back nw at the tot of certain things... haiz suan le... i shall jus stare at the com and let my mind cool dwn... then start thinking of hw im gona do my exam again...

2009-03-19T01:40:00.001+08:00

i duno wad to say lah... jus sibei du lan already... im really tired of everything le... wad mus i do? wad can i do? wa lao... fk fk fk fkfkfkkfkfkfkfkfkfkkfkfkfkfkfkkfkfkfkfkfkkfkfkfkfkfkfkkfkfkfkfkfkfkfkfkfkkfkfkfkfkfkfkfkfkkfkfkfk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~HNSDOKFNLFSLKNMKNFSLKNFLKNSLKNFlnlnalskfgnaofgnoangolahnseafdsgl;,admfh;aetjkh;jetnh;knsdfk;bn;'aetkjhp;asdjihjndk;jn;jnwh;'tgjr;'

2009-03-16T22:38:00.002+08:00

woohoo~~~~ bloggehhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~ *wipes away dusts on my blog* sry tat ive been neglecting u my dearest bloggeh =p

omg ive gt so much to type tat i 4gt all of em == k time for point forms =p
1.work
2.me and hunn
3.school soon
4.stressed up/fked up/du lan/sian
5.RANDOMNESS-ISM

1.work has been getting better jus makes me hot up at times... especially wif lazy and brainless ppl... they xferred me to ORQ (One Raffles Quay) 2day and yes we gt a branch there and they put me in charge of the "kitchen" was like fking bored and i decided to get crazy wif all the food i can find =x then the manager jenny made me iced rambutan and minty lychee freeze thx alot wor =)

2.wakaka hunn~~~ our 1 mth anni jus over... me and baby decided to spend it watching movies while she does her project at my hse... she gave me a cool shirt and a new earpiece for my hp... thx so much my love... then i gave her a cute little bear wif my perfumed sprayed on it and oso "gave" her white chocs ("gave" cos i ate most of it><) super sian thing is she doesnt seem to have much time wif me nwadays especially since she has her projects gg on and her fren's bday ytd... but well, guess i gota be understanding right? its for the sake of her edu aft all... jus dun really like her to overtire herself and get sick...

3.rah!!! starting to sch in 2 wks... im supposed to be dam happy but im nt!!!! exam on the 1st day of sch... gota get my own menu, price for each dish, time plan done asap as well as wad im gona cook... wtf lo... sian ah!!! go honggan lah ==

4.sian... dad i really really really wana noe everything... i noe u need help jus ask me or tell me wad u need.. pls? other things tat are making me dam sian are already partially mentioned abv... jus kinda lazy to type lo...

5.well it seems nicer wif 5 points... and yes anna im gona zha u again.. R.A.N.D.O.M =)

have a jolly good day all~

2009-03-12T02:14:00.002+08:00

seriously sibei pek cek and du lan nw... my patience is really going dwn wif my mood... gt really alot of things pulling me dwn and ive really had enuf of it... exam on the 1st day i go back to sch ==, work slightly better but still fked up, dad really needs help,wana have mre time to rest and have fun, neglecting alot of stuff that i ought to pay attention to... my temper has been really flaring up... im sry abt tat... but for god's sake lo star ask u work u eat and slack nia... tats all u noe hw to do... and otto wtf lah... u work here longer than me and yet u work like its ur 1st day of work everyday... knn really si bei du lan abt alot of things already... i seriously need like 3 mths break frm everything except being wif baby...

lao po... can u pls pls pls listen to me and slp early? i say alot of times le if u gt enuf slp and ur nt gona get sick then fine i dun mind letting u stay up but ask urself hw tired u are nw and hw badly ur coughing... haiz... i really wish ur here altho we jus met jus nw... i really wish we had mre time tgt...

gene is dead tired... gene needs a break frm everything...

2009-03-07T22:18:00.003+08:00

jus had a romantic dinn wif baby at my hse... cooked it wif super romantic ambience and music hahaha... guess tats wad made our day right baby? cant bear to send u hme soon... gt back to reality soon aft our dinn... dad's letter totally destroyed my mood as well... str8 away make me sian... nw mummy and sis hme le... i oso gt nth to do while baby play wif my sis and study at the same time...

honey lets have mre romantic moments =) back to work tml... gg get some stuff aft work... hehe well tats all i gota say... bye all~~

EDITED AT 217AM:
Yes!! im nt aslp yet... kinda accompnaying baby study... well, in a way... ive created a new word out of bordem!! boredem-ism =) k yes i noe im lame... or maybe nt... my legs are working fine and im absolutely normal =x decided to blog so tat i at least have smth to do while baby is studying... im spamming tidbits to get past the boredem too =x jus tat i decided to let my mouth and stomach rest awhile... ive finish a whole packet of muruku and "fishball" le... fishball as in those keropok kind... hw? im gona get uber fat le =p

lao po... jy for ur test later k? when u get uber stressed up jus rmb, im by ur side and in ur heart... i'll always be here for u... no matter hw far, i'll always be my ur side... jy k? dun put too much pressure on urself... u can do it de... love u loads... *hugs and kisses*

2009-03-06T02:03:00.003+08:00

hehehe due to lazyness ive decided to do a short msg again...
1.work has been fun. i guess
2.cant wait to get out of this place and have mre time wif baby
3.tot i wont be able to see bb for the whole of this wk but she gave me a surprise by looking for me ytd... dam shocked and touched... wo bei mo le T_T =p
4. went to look for bb 2day hahaha... love u loads i'll always be by urside... pls rmb tat... ai si ni
5.honey wad shall we do on our anni?
6.saving like mad for me and bb's holiday... rejected derrick's outing and others... sry guys... ive been spending alot le...
7.wtf man i duno wad to say!!!
8.glad tat this is jus a short msg
9.im jus typing crap so tat i can get 10 points
10.there!! i did it!!!! yay!!!!! =X

2009-03-04T03:07:00.001+08:00

short msg
1.sry tat im blogging lesser... either lazy, bz or no mood
2.things i found out have made my heart numb to pain already
3.lao da back frm his leave le... work is gona suck all over again
4.i duno wad im thinking my mind is totally blank
5.i still love u... but i really need time to get over all those things
6.i hope u understand and noe tat ur still in my heart

2009-03-01T00:13:00.002+08:00

woohoo~~~ sry ppl i noe lah... my blog collecting dust ady... maaf... i noe all of u wan updates LOLOLOLOLOL... but hor gt 1 BIGGGG prob... my memory is failing me again =x

anyway... ive decided to tell u wad i'll be talking abt so tat i can take my time to think =p
1.work
2.me and baby
3.promises to baby
4.total randomness

1. work has been fine but kinda piss-ifiying these few days... at least dun have lao da around to make noise wakaka wed then he come back... ive been gg to the branch at capital square to help 1 of the trainees... cant blame me lah i pro =x work at 9am later... till 5pm lo LOL offc hrs... hahaha... mon new menu out le... wad can i say but, WE'RE DOOMED!!! lololol! wad pisses me off is our allowance... altho its on $8 A DAY, yes a day nt an hr, when it accumulates we all noe it can go up to a huge sum... and they are supposed to giv it to us every 2 wks... nw delay to 1 mth le... and ive yet to get a single cent... fk u guys... use ur fking brains... wad am i gona eat? hw am i gona take mrt to work? knn promise us so much in the end all fked up... this is to all of u _l_(-.-)_l_

2.haha pass few days was wif baby aft work... thurs she came my hse... so we jus talk talk... then eat ah mah's secret recipe dishes haha... nice rite dear? =p then fri aft work went to look for her and we stayed overnite at macs again... baby brought her pooh and its named "hui chen" (dust) hahahaha.. and as usual baby study i orh orh >< sry lah bb tired... work for 11 hrs leh... =xlove u loads... will we see each other again later b4 we cant meet for a wk? =/

3.PROMISES ARE EXTREMELY IMPT... I HATE BREAKING THEM!!! so for nw, promises to baby... honey... by nxt yr.. we shall go on a holiday... u decide where... i promise u... jus u and me on our own to any place u desire... i'll be having attachment nxt yr... but nvm... can take leave de =)

4.R.A.N.D.O.M LOL wad? i already said randomness abv... LOL...

2009-02-26T00:54:00.002+08:00

hmmm no idea hw to start this post... anyway... lao dao go on leave le!! woohoo!!! i wan riot liao!!! wreak havoc!!!! LOLOLOL.. jkjk... schedule for the rest of this week changed i'll be working at 6 am later till 2pm as well as on fri... dun think i'll slp... comfirm wont wake up le =x 4 mre wks and im out of this fked up, unreasonable and useless place *grins*

sian... dad's getting warning letters again... i cant let this happen to the family... yea im still young but still, i gota try to do smth abt it... i cant let everything go jus like tat... our hse, dad's truck, dad's shop, sis' studies nt much abt my bro cos he hardly helps anyway == haiz... i wan our family to be happy jus like hw we used to be... i dun need us to be millionaires or having things tat we might nt need in life... jus happiness....

nw, i shall start on my very own version of "P.S I Love You" (no offence to the movie or anything related to it... erm the way i type on the computer and in compositions are rather diff in terms of language and length so pls pardon me and hope u like the story)
on the 25th of jan... a guy and a girl met for the very 1st time... they didnt really noe wad to say or wad to do... all they did was sit and talk till they had to go for reunion dinner... soon aft feelings grew between the 2 of them rather quickly... meetups aft meetups they gt closer and closer... soon aft they were considered as a cpl jus tat they decided to noe each other mre and think things through b4 it became an official thing...

2 wks later, they tot things through and on valentine's day they decided to put their hearts tgt to form 1 wif a proposal in the Singapore Flyer... till this day, their feelings are getting stronger and stronger for each other wif lots of love and laughter in every min they are tgt... he wans to tell her hw much he really loves and appreciates her but doesnt really noe hw to... they've nt met for long but all he would wana say is p.s i love u baby...

bb ah... i noe u will feel pai seh... dun be k? we've nt known for long but im sure we noe each other well enuf... i love u my dear... im nt gona let u go, im nt gona leave u alone... i'll be by ur side till u'll nvr wan me near... i love u...

2009-02-24T01:58:00.003+08:00

haha ladies and gentleman, pls 4giv me for my laziness to blog... it might start collecting dust aft 2day but i'll still come over to reply tags...

work on sun was fun... lols wad am i saying? of cos its fun!! lao da nt around at all LOL... spared frm his nags and violence for a day... but work jus nw was si bei sian and du lan... i lazy to elaborate... nvm 28 march im gota fk out frm this place... giv him attitude and make him du lan on the last day he oso LL LOL...

went to look for baby jus nw... cant blame me... i love her too much to even be wifout her for a sec... love her too much liao... its a gd thing anyway... always helps me to smile when im wif her... always makes me happy being wif her... most of all... im sure being tgt is always the best time for both of us... rite lao po? haha... hope tat we can meet real soon.... miss u already... and yes i noe u do too... dun push urself too hard for ur test later... all the best... i'll be by ur side... i love u bb...

wakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakaka
nite peeps~~~!!!

EDITED AT 312AM:
haiz im crying im really depressed and upset.. as i put my deferment letter on the shoe rack for my dad to take and fax to the NS centre, i saw this letter he was probably gg to type when he goes for work later... i dun wana elaborate.... haiz dad... tell me... hw can i help?? pls dun keep these kinda things frm me anymre... pls dad... tell me hw can i help? i dun mind nt having allowance... i dun mind if i have to take midnight jobs... are we really gona havta declare bankrupt like u once told me b4? dad tell me wad can i do to save this family... will i be gg through all these alone? will u leave me if im really broke and cant get u wad u wan? haizzzzzzzzz.... wo si diao jiu suan le...wo wu hua ke shuo le... wo zhen de hen xiang fang qi zhe ge shen ming le... dad i wish u told me why the $ i gave u wasnt enuf... nw i noe...

2009-02-21T17:00:00.004+08:00

omg omg i feel dam blur nw... jus woke up... spent the nite accompanying darling at macs while she study lols... ytd went hme aft work... took a bath and charged my phone abit then made my way to fajar le... lols had dinner and breakfast both at the the macs there... then we kept falling aslp frm 5am onwards... aft tat decided to send lao po hme cos she has to meet her frens at 12pm to study again... miss u baby...

work ytd was alright i guess... nt as bad as mon-thurs altho i took mc on tues and wed =p and as usual work was much better wifout lao da around... lols... wad else can i say? haha =p

tml working at 2pm then mon 12 pm... ahhhh sian ah!!!! 28 march pls come faster so tat i can get out of this place... im feeling mre and mre lazy le... especially when i have to work lunch periods... and yes its cos lao da always gt bad temper during lunch cos of the orders... banyak sial... he stress = all of us stress and du lan... LOL...

well tats all peeps...

2009-02-20T00:41:00.002+08:00

wakakak jus reached hme... work was like fk 2day... dun ask why... still kinda pissed abt it... i miss the gd old times me and my frens would have wifout lao da around... nw im working aftnn most of the time and lao da sure around de... wif his fked up temper as usual... nt tat i mind but sometimes its really overboard... suan le lo...

went to look for lao po aft work... talked abit and so on... then sent her hme... really cant bear to part whenever we meet... miss her the moment we go hme... btw lao po... i owe u 1 mcflurry =) i miss u loads T_T muacks!

i noe lah ppl my posts really nt tat long le... lazy me i guess =p

2009-02-18T14:28:00.004+08:00

hmm at hme nw... free frm fever and headaches but nt my cough... dam bored lo.. .nth to do... any1 wana come my hse play cards and monopoly??? LOLOLOL... cant go out jus in case i get fever all over again...

baby's in sch nw doing her assignment... i miss u my love... thx for taking care of me ytd... 6-10 hrs a day tgt isnt enuf... when will we have a 12-24 hrs? =x i miss u loads... i love u loads... cant get u off my mind cos im so in love wif u... thx for all ur care and concern... thx for all the love u shower me wif... and yes my dear bear bear... i love u too... im nt jus saying for the sake of saying... but im saying frm the bottom of my heart... i love u loads... and i mean it...

sian wad can i do nw? slp? play audi? stone? i duno sia == gt a super strong feeling tat im gona kena frm chef tml once i reach for work == sian lo... haiz... oh well i'll be out of there soon =\ i hope... hmm i shall stone in front of the com =p bye all~~~~

EDITED AT 1230am:
haiz i really wana giv up... but i dun wana disappoint every1 around me either... my parents, my relatives, my frens and especially my baby... i dun wana let any1 dwn... i really dun but wad if i really cant take it?? will i lose all of ur faiths on me? will i lose all of ur confidence towards me? i dun wana be convicted as useless like my bro... uncle: eugene nxt time cook wagyu beef for me ok? all i wan is medium rare can already... mum & dad: u can do it... dun listen to wad they say jus do ur best...
cousins:wa eugene... working as a cook ah? when will cook for us?
haiz... i dun wana let any of u dwn... i dun wana disappoint any1... especially baby, mum and dad... haiz... guess all i can do nw is to let nature take its course huh?

went out wif pei fen earlier to accompany her... walked around then went arcade lols... nth much bah...

2009-02-18T01:27:00.001+08:00

ahhh high fever!!! lao po came and took care of me... thx so much baby... if nt for u i would probably be suffering alone at hme... thx for being there for me all the time... muacks!

didnt go for work wont be going later either... still nt feeling so gd... decided to sms lao da instead of calling him... =x

aiya duno wad to say lah... bb ><

2009-02-16T23:46:00.003+08:00

seriously fking bad day at work 2day... nvr do anything wrg oso keep scolding me... like wth lo... and sry guys tat my posts in this blog are nt as long or detailed as the ones in the old blog... getting mre and mre lazy aft i started working ==

lao po... thx for being there for me when i need u... ur always my number 1... ai si ni le... hope tat we'll have mre time tgt each time we meet... im already missing u the moment we part for hme.. i love u baby... it always makes me super happy when i see u... even if its jus ur pic which i couldnt stop looking at during work =x helps me to relax =p love u loads honey!! muacks!

haiz working lunch period for the rest of this wk... sure mre fked up ==... felt super wierd wifout ciggs in my pocket when i went out 2day cos im trying to quit for baby... but Roy bought me a pack when he see me so pek cek == thx roy but pls rmb im supposed to quit wakakaka...

gona start waiting for my baby to call me le... chaoz all~

2009-02-15T17:10:00.004+08:00

wakakkaa bloggy time~~~ blogging wif my girl beside me LOL...

Valentine's Day ytd was fun... thx baby for ur gifts...she gave me a new wallet and "bread" wif notes on it hahhaa... will up load the pics later... she came to my hse 1st and gave me those... then i gave her her 1st gift... aft awhile we went for dinn then i brought her up the Singapore Flyer where i "proposed" to her at the peak haha... so erm yea.. im attached nw =p

here are the pics:

Baby's gifts for me =)

Our rings =D

the other things tat i gave her were a soft toy tat comes in a couple and flowers delivered to her hse on fri nite...

hmm tats all i guess bah byes~~~~~

2009-02-14T00:49:00.002+08:00

hmm nth much to say... feeling super lazy to blog... happy valentines day to all... all the best wif ur loved ones *winks*

sad lo i needa work on vday... meeting baby aft work... gt surprises for her... she didnt tell me if she still wanted me to ask the ques or nt tho... mentally stressed up le... having headache == errrr duno wad to say le lah... bye all

EDITED AT 150AM:
why do i suddenly feel so lonely? feels as if there's no1 by my side but u... i need u here... i dun mind if they dun accept me... i'll understand... wo de xin tu ran shui le.. wo de xin zhen de hen tong... wo zhen de xu yao ni zai wo shen bian... wo zhen de hen pa ni hui jue de wo mei yong... wo zhen de hen pa ni hui li kai wo... bao bei lao po... wo ai ni...

2009-02-11T22:15:00.002+08:00

hmmm had half day off 2day cos of a very bad stomach ache... went to see doc le then went to meet nu er for 1 of baby's gifts.. im getting broke.... haiz i miss my kawasaki... guess i'll nvr get to ride it anymre... bao bei mus tc of ur new owner wor... daddy will miss u... had to sell u away cos of my own problems...

haiz received NS letter le... i'll be defferred but only till nxt yr... i dun wana be nt be able to be wif baby for 3 mths... dun wana nt be able to talk to her or see her... haiz... feeling mre lazy towards work oso... dam sian... especially when im working wif sum1 wif a fked up attitude... back to work tml... sian ah~~~~~

ps. baby i miss u loads... i'll die wifout being able to see u... wish ur here... i wan u to be happy wif me for the nxt 365 days b4 i have to go into ns... i wana cherish every sec wif u even mre... i wana make sure tat it will really brighten ur day being wif me each time... i love u...

2009-02-10T23:00:00.002+08:00

Jus a really short msg bah:
1.nt really in the right mood nw
2.work was bz and tiring overall was fine...
3.when certain things are broken to many times... it can nvr be recovered.. many of u noe why i will say tat sentence le...
4.it really hurts to noe tat aft all this while, ur still nt rdy... i can understand... but makes me feel tat everything u did was nt cos u love me when u said ur nt rdy... i really wana noe why... i wana noe wad i can do...
5.i miss u loads even tho we met earlier
6.haiz i dun feel like gg to work...
7.my heart really hurts rite nw..
8.i wish i can noe everything i wana noe nw...

2009-02-10T01:11:00.002+08:00

hmmm work was super tiring 2day... guess its gona be the same for the rest of this wk... seriously need mre slp but wana have mre time for baby too... went around sg for v. day purposes.... gt 2 surprises done... left wif 2 mre... =p altho 1 of it is super obvious lah... =p

haiz few mre hrs gg to work le... gota take 1st train again sian.... then meeting baby aft work... i miss u loads...

lazy to type le... tats all peeps

2009-02-09T00:51:00.002+08:00

teehee~~~ im home~~~ super long day 2day... woke up at 715 am and went to ngee ann city to 1 of the branches for a short while then went over to cck to meet baby... went to national library and accompany her study LOL... 1st time stay in a library for mre than 3 hrs lo.... usually by 4 hrs the most i will go hme le... stayed wif baby for like 9 hrs then went for dinn then went back in again... fell aslp b4 gg for dinn >< was like super cold inside... sry tat i didnt help u much my love...

hmmm for the rest of the wk i'll be working frm 6am till 2pm meaning i have to wake up by 430 everyday == super sian... working wif tat girl wif attitude prob summre sigh... aft work 2day will be gg around sg to prepare for baby's surprises... haha dun wry u will find out soon =x dun think i gt anything else to talk abt...

ps. i love seeing ur smile and hearing ur laughter when we're out tgt... it always brightens my day... i enjoyed 2day i hope u did too... waking u up in 1 hr for ur assignment hope u will still get enuf rest aft tat... and sry tat ur family had to find out abt us... i shouldve listened to u and went hme frm the lrt... i love u baby... i'll see u soon... *hugs and kisses*

bye all~

2009-02-08T02:35:00.002+08:00

hmm work 2day was nt so bz but tiring.. area cleaning mah... then gt alot of stuff to clean up and pack... chillers, freezers and etc... then aft tat went to get lunch realised my posb card lost... wtf... then i only gt $4 in my wallet == dam suay lo... call them to cancel the card le then nvm... on the way hme went to cheers and ask if they saw it... in the end gt but already cancelled... sian lo... hmm gd thing is i gt mre ang baos and getting my allowance in a few hrs while having a short meeting later... then go find baby le...

errr suddenly brain lagg 4gt wad to say... guess tats all?

ps. i love u loads muacks!

2009-02-07T01:19:00.002+08:00

woohoo!!! finally can use my com!! "certain ppl" have been hogging it == hmm work has been as usual so far... considering tat nw is sat, lunch period was super bz 2 days ago... super tired on tat day... and ytd, ah huei came back frm msia... wa lao her attitude i canot tahan... zzzz... ya its reasonable tat she's been working there for 2 yrs but hey, im sure there's no need for such attitude when others can talk nicely right? oh well... 2day will be totally area cleaning as usual for saturdays and sundays...

valentine's day is coming soon!!! hw hw??? wad to do for u ah? haha ya lah i planned already but jus afraid tat i might need a plan B if things cock up =x we finally met again ytd... i had a great time wif u... and i always do... we'll see each other again tml rite? haha =p u ah... seriously needa rest mre lo... always slp so "early" and wake up so early oso... bite u!!!! miss u loads... love u loads... *hugs*

2009-02-04T01:17:00.002+08:00

hmm mum, dad... it really hurts me to see both of u working like tat... and yet i let u guys dwn... i wish i had the courage to tell both of u tat i really appreciate and love u guys... when there was no1 else... its the 2 of u who would tell me to hold on... its the 2 of u who would see me through... no matter hw much i would start getting angry wif u guys... my heart melts when i see both of u do so much for the 3 of us.. no matter hw much we dissappoint u, u would still giv us ur best... both of u told me b4... amoung the 3 im the most sensible and responsible... and im really happy... i noe tat u love us equally... but it made me proud to be ur son... but soon aft, i let u dwn time and time again... nw wif tons of debts running in and out... wad could i do? i dun wana see both of u working so hard... i wan both of u to enjoy... i noe im still young and yet to be independant in certain ways... u guys asked me... why cant i jus take $ frm both of u? why mus i depend on myself and be willing to pay for my own bills? cos my dear parents, i noe tat there's already enuf burden... and i dun wana add on... both of u noe hw independant i can be... but u still worry for me... there's so much i wish i could say to both of u... and most of all... i love u guys... thank u so much...

work 2day was tiring as usual... gt pissed off and lost my temper at an idiot... shall nt elaborate... overall, it was great... sad thing is... BABY!!!! I MISS U!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

ps. 3 mre days till we can see each other again... i cant wait... i miss u like mad... i wan u by my side... i dun care if im selfish... cos i love u =) miss ur hugs, miss ur kisses and most of all.. i miss u by my side...
Forever in my heart... Loves...

2009-02-02T22:07:00.002+08:00

wahahaha hme!!! wa lao this wk doing lunch period super bz and tiring... orders kept coming non-stop and i have to stand right infront of a salmander for 2 hrs == super hot lo!! make my mood super hot and tiring oso == was almost late for work in the morn cos i 4gt tat i start at 12 for this wk =x

hmm went out wif mab ytd... woke up at around 630 to get all the ingredients for her lunchbox then flew over to vivo city le... haha we went for a movie called "The Wedding Game"... hmm it was ok lah... romantic at parts and funny at parts too... we went to the open area where i gave her her lunch box tat i woke up super early to prepare and her surprise gift =) went to Pet Safari aft tat then walked around giant... aft awhile we went to The Pump Room at clarke quay... had a tower and we sat tat for like 4 hrs? hahaha then had to send baby hme aft tat lols...

ps. im glad u enjoyed urself... and yes, it was the happiest day of my life... thank you for ur hugs... thank you for ur kisses... thank you for ur laughter... thank you for the love u gave me... thank u for everything and i enjoyed every sec of it... btw, u have really beautiful eyes =) u asked me why do i love u... i told u the reasons but there is still 1 thing tat i didnt tell u... which is tat ur beautiful in every way and u have a lovely smile tat will always chase away the dark clouds.... yes... im loving u mre and mre and yes again tat i miss u like mad whenever ur nt by my side...
ni xian zai yi jing shi wo de yi qie... ni yi jing shi wo de xin gan bao bei... wo yao hao hao de zhao gu ni... wo ye gei ni xin fu... wo yao ni mei tian kuai le... wo ai ni!

2009-02-01T02:09:00.002+08:00

wakaka work was super fun 2day... i gt dam high... LOL... all of them keep asking me dun so high... then all of us had alot of fun =x was doing a surprise for mab b4 we meet in a few hrs time == do till my hand pain lo T_T summre 2day all cleaning make my hand worse ==

hmm hme alone nw... family all went to msia besides me cos i had to work... well its gd cos i have mre freedom LOL... go there always do the same things anyway... dun think i'll slp till around 6am cos gg to the wet market to buy some stuff to cook for mab... see i so gd to u hahahah...

ps. i totally couldnt concentrate on anything i was doing cos of u... i really miss u alot... nth is the same wifout u by my side... nth is the same wifout hearing ur laughter or seeing ur smile... well, i'll see u later rite? hahaha... hugs hugs u...

nite all~~~

2009-01-31T00:51:00.002+08:00

wakaka hme le~~~ went fro drinks aft work... wanted to drink wif towkay but he went hme le so i drank wif bryan wong... lols... had 2 cups then he only had 1... say he dun wan le... hmm work 2day was fine and fun as usually... haha tml sure dam boring... wad to do? cbd area mah... sat and sun sure no ppl de... sian lo 4gt to bring my clock-in card 2day... couldnt clock-in == so i had to ask the manager to help me settle LOL... sry lo mas.. thx for ur help altho we duno really noe each other ==

ps. over the phone wif u nw but i still miss u... nt used to nt being able to hear ur voice on9... i realise i really need u alot by my side... hope u have fun wif ur frens... dun eat till puke wor =p

2009-01-30T00:31:00.002+08:00

woohoo~~~ hme sweet hme! work was stress-relieving 2day for certain reasons hahaha.. kinda tired tho... ive been having alot of things in my mind but totally 4gt abt them when i wana blog... work has been getting fun haha...

ps. why do i get the feeling tat im losing u? why do i get the feeling tat u dun need me? is it true? haiz... i guess nt... life is boring and lifeless wifout hearing ur laughter or even seeing ur smile... wish i'll see u on sun...

2009-01-29T04:17:00.002+08:00

its a really bad day 2day... work made my blood boil, personal stuff made my heart ache, lack of slp makes me mre pissed and emotional... haiz... duno wad to say... having a really really really bad headache... gg dwn for a short walk b4 i die of heartattack and brain dmg...

tc all... wish me luck... if i pass out on the street and nvr wake up then i guess im really suay le... pls stay happy at my funeral =.=

ps. i duno anything abt us for nw... its jus really confusing and tiring... i wish we could stay like this and go on further... but i noe its hard for u... we both need time to think things thru... are u ready? am i? are we both sure? yea i noe u need time... guess i do too... having too little time in a day really sux... haiz...

tats all i guess... dun really have the mindset to think of anything else... headache killing me

2009-01-27T01:08:00.002+08:00

went out for visitations 2day.. was quite fun and juliet is sooo dam cute... my 1 yr old niece hahahah... so adorable can!!!! my ang paos seem to be getting lesser in terms of cash... LOL reccession? =\ hmm was kinda dwn for some time due to certain reasons.... gt better aft awhile...

hmmm ive no idea if i'll be doing visitation tml... cos there's only 1 place we needa go and 1 family is out of SG... guess i'll be able to catch up on my slp =x

ps. i miss u.. u noe who u are... but if its really hard for u... then i think i might leave soon but i hope u will understand... haiz... i love u alot... but i dun wan u to have too much pressure on urself...

tats all for 2day? haha bye all

2009-01-26T00:15:00.001+08:00

happy niu year every1!!! haha had a great steamboat for reunion dinn... cant wait for red packets in a few hrs time =xxx

Answers i wana noe: if he comes back for u will u 4gt me? are u sure tat im the right guy for u?

p.s i had a great time wif u 2day...

2009-01-25T02:41:00.002+08:00

wakaka its already sun... i'll be working morning shift 2day... so i gota wake up in around 3 hrs? LOL... tot of blogging 1st.. work ytd was quite slack... nt much orders... even if there were i didnt them in a super relax way... hahah... i shall nt elaborate... aft work i'll be gg to my cous' hse for reunion dinn then come back hme le... mon visitation, tues 100% free~~~~ LOL

anyway... as for nw... i better go slp.. promised sum1 tat i would... nite all...

2009-01-24T04:40:00.003+08:00

oops its already 440 and im nt aslp... haha was accompanying sum1 special... lols... u noe who u are lah... hmm wont be doing much at work 2day... heard tat there's no customer's on sats and suns.... so later will be doing mre of area cleaning...

haiz... wo jue ding le... ji ran wo men bu neng zai yi qi... wo ye bu xiang bi ni... wo jue ding li kai ni le... xi wang ni neng zhao dao yi ge ke yi dui ni bi jiao hao de nan ren... dui bu qi... ke shi wo ren bu zhu le... zui xin ku bu shi chao jia... er shi na me ai ni dan bu neng he ni zai yi qi... wo fang qi le... xi wang ni yong yuan kai xin... zai jian le ting...

2009-01-23T23:12:00.000+08:00

wakaka went out to buy clothes this aftnn... went to vivo city and gt 2 shirts...1 tshirt and 1 shirt actually lols... then aft tat came hme and rest then went tampines to collect pants... wanted to slp de... but couldnt =x

haiz... dui bu qi... ke shi wo kai shi dui ni mei you gan jue le... wo men yi jing 3 tian mei you zai yi qi le... wo hen xiang ni... ke shi wo men ye mei ban fan... ni bu shu fu ye zai zuo gong... ru guo wo men ji xu zhe yang zi... wo ke neng hui li kai ni le... dui bu qi

2009-01-23T03:17:00.003+08:00

wakaka its friday!! im off 2day... so i dun need to go for work later... think i'll slp longer and call the prev branch regarding my allowance LOL... then go shop for new yr clothes le...

haha so far raffles has been better than taka... lols... jus mre bz and tiring... but the ppl there are fun and entertaining LOL...

errr dun really noe wad to say....

ps. ting i miss u alot... we've hardly talked... i love u..
pps.mab jie jie... winks* u better rest mre too... later jie fu see ur dark eye circles he tot who is tat panda =x <33s

2009-01-22T02:16:00.002+08:00

haiz jus a short post...
1.Ting i miss u
2.Bored and lonely
3.Work has been fine so far
4.who would be by my side when i need them?
5.why are there so many tots in my mind?
6.think i need mre rest
7.haiz... phata hati... nak nangis... i duno why
8.bye all

2009-01-20T01:33:00.001+08:00

hmm 1st day of work at raffles was fine... went for a haircut b4 work lols... kinda tiring... but overall was ok bah... chef was kinda fierce at the beginning but fine aft the crowd was gone... lols...

rushed hme to find ting... miss her alot and kinda worried bout her...dui bu qi ah bao bei... bu neng zhao gu ni... wo hui zai ni shen bian de...

hmm dun seem to have much to say... still considering on those tatoos... a permanent 1 actually haha... oh well... cya~~

2009-01-18T23:16:00.002+08:00

hmmm 2day is my last day at bkk... tml onwards will be at the branch in raffles le... haiz wish me gd luck... duno wad's gona happen to me =.=

lao po... ru guo wo neng you ni zai wo shen bian... na hui duo hao... ai ni..

ps. mum dad.. i love u guys... thx for the encouragement

2009-01-16T23:19:00.003+08:00

wakakak decided to have a ride wif ken and merv around yishun to look for smth for me and ting's wedding hahaha... i noe lah 3 sport bikes ride tgt very stylo but no need to stare at us rite? hahaha anyway, since i couldnt find the 1 i wanted i bought smth like it for the same price... bet all of u wana noe wad it is rite? hahaha dun tell u LOL.... so nw hme le... blog le gg find ting....

haiz as i reported for work 2day... i received 2 news tat i was really afraid to hear and it really happened... 1. allowance for all shatec students have been cancelled due to some probs wif our working place... 2. im gona be transferred to the branch at raffles place T_T ive been told tat its hell there and alot busier... haiz... guess im meant to be dead... sian... i duno wads gona happen... i'll be reporting at raffles place frm mon onwards T_T_T_T_T sum1 save me... im already stressed enuf here... if i go there hw??? haiz...

ps. ting i miss u alot...

2009-01-14T23:07:00.002+08:00

wo ren bu zhu le... zhen de hen xiang ku... i hate pressure at work... i hate being stressed up everyday... bao bei ni hui pei wo zou zhe tiao lu mah? ni hui zhi chi wo mah? wo zhen de hen xiang zhi dao zhe ge da an... wo hao xiang ni T_T xi wang neng you ni zai wo shen bian...

haiz... saw my report 2day... it really sucked... haiz.... i duno wad to say le... my mood is gone... my effort seems to be dwn the drain...

2009-01-13T20:34:00.003+08:00

hmm didnt go anywhere 2day... all i did was wake up in the aftnn... eat... watch tv.... play audi... slp... then wake up and eat... nw use com and wait for ting lo.... sian im out of ciggs... cant smoke T_T

haiz ting i really wish i can see u... shi bu shi ying wei ni pa wo? hai shi ying wei ni bu neng he wo zai yi qi? sigh.... duno wad else i can say... tml gg work le,... comfirm alot of stupid things again... sigh....

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2009-01-12T22:44:00.003+08:00

hmm jus woke up frm my short nap in hope of ting calling me to meet her? =/ and of cos she didnt... sigh... miss her alot... wish i could tell her tat i really need her by my side right nw instead of forcing myself to be happy when we talk...

hmm 2day off day tml oso no need work cos of PH... haha claimed it for new yr le... went out wif pei fen in the aftnn and walked around northpoint area... met some other frens and slacked a total of 5 hrs then came hme liao... makan and slp so nw blog blog =p

dun think there's anything else to say... nw chatting wif anna lols... u piggy!!!! =p tats all folks cya!

2009-01-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

haiz as most of u noe by nw, coffee club has 2 branches in taka... im working at the 1 in kino... but the chef over at the other branch outside kino wans me to work under him... i dun wana go there... im already stressed enuf here... i'll be dead if i go over... sigh... sometimes i ask myself, am i really cut out to be a chef?honestly speaking... i dun have much interest in cooking... i do but nt tat much... the main reason for me to do this is cos of my dad... i wana open a restaurant for him... i noe he likes to cook... but wad im really interested in is music and archery... nt really in dancing any mre due to my weight and the loss of sum1 last yr... haiz off day tml and tues...i'll be safe frm getting fked these 2 days....

haiz lily jie ur gone... who's gona tell me tat im fine? who's gona tell me tat ur there for me? who's gona tell me tat u'll support me.. things have changed... im still nt used to nt being able to hear ur voice... im still nt used to nt having a jie tat has really taken care of me tat is no longer in this world... i really miss u... i miss my frens... i miss my old life... im tired...

ting u might nt noe tat i have a blog but if u happen to see it someday..... i really need u by my side.. we may nt be officially tgt but i still miss u alot... i wish i could see u... i wish i could feel tat u love me and i noe u do... i love u my dear....

haiz... tats all for 2day... really need alot of rest... alot of things gg thru my head... bye all

2009-01-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

erm sumhw i duno wad to say... jus tot of typing some stuff so tat my blog doesnt collect dust LOL... hmm work has been fine... emotions are fine... tiredness lvl is high LOL... nt enuf slp nwadays =p zzz i duno wad to say le lah...

ps. ting i miss u loads.

2009-01-05T19:44:00.002+08:00

hmm jus reached hme.. i duno why somehw i feel very stressed very pissed very tired... feeling very violent... guess guys have mood swings too.. tempo chef came 2day to replace the chef who went on leave... he really made my day haha... he's a really nice and funny guy... thx alot jon altho u wont see my blog =.=

i suddenly feel very burdened very dwn... but i duno wads bothering me... aiz... anyway, aft work went boat quay in hope of getting my pay frm the pub i used to work at... in the end wasted my transport $ and time cos the accountant nvr come... so i had a drink and came hme le... sian... jus feel very troubled.. argh!!!

ps. ting we may nt be close.. but sumhw, i do miss u....

2009-01-03T23:46:00.001+08:00

hmmm reached hme at around 11... bee hp no $ so couldnt ans my calls or sms lols.. then nw jus slacking lo... nth to do... chef dun lemme work tml cos of my bad throat and flu LOL... so i have the day off... gtg get an MC tho... oh well lazy to say much...

2009-01-02T20:17:00.002+08:00

hmmm reached hme awhile ago... kinda dwn wif flu and headache think cos i had nt enuf rest... slpt at 6am woke up at 730 =.= and im in a very bad mood.. think cos im jus too tired...
haha aft work went to clarke quay to find 1 of my jies... then went to the bus stop for a puff and saw fredrick lols... he oso jus knock off frm work...told me his branch very slack LOL...

anyway... i cant really think of wad to say... i'll go take a nap in awhile... lols... bye all

2008-12-31T23:00:00.002+08:00

time really flies... 1 yr has passed... lotsa ups and dwns but its over... time for a brand new start... dun really noe wad to say... happy new yr every1 ! all the best in 2009! loves all... lily jie ur the only person i couldnt sms... wish we could celebrate new yr tgt once mre... ily... imy...

haha i realised alot of girls are approaching me since i started work at coffee club ytd lols... ask me alot of wierd ques and favs... haha... oh well work has been fun... was the dishwasher 2day for the whole day LOL... i smell like detergent nw... haha oh well... gtg

2008-12-30T23:11:00.002+08:00

im hme~~~ 1st day of work at coffee club 2day... haha it was nice and fun... a little boring lols... didnt really do much anyway... haha... tml start work at 2pm... think i'll slp till 1 pm =x

gona type a lil smth abt a special sum1 whose no longer in this world... lily jie i really miss u... when i went to see u at the cemetry this morning i still rmb tat we were supposed to go to hokkaido during my 2 wk holiday... we were supposed to see the sakura flowers and dance like there's no tomorrow... wish u could be beside me instead of lying there and me talking to u for hrs wifout hearing ur voice... i miss u jie... forever the best god-sister in my heart...

2008-12-29T21:51:00.003+08:00

its the 4th time a girl hurt me like this... i duno hw im gona trust any1 anymre... i duno who i can count on to support me... i duno wad im gona do... guess i'll jus stick 2 wad i said which is to find sum1 or open my heart to sum1 only 5 yrs later... this time, no mre exceptions... this time im nt gona trust any1 as much...

orientation for training at coffee club 2day... haha compulsory for sch training... i'll be "working" at coffee club for the nxt 3 mths... lazy to type mre... nt feeling well and my mood has gone dwn the drain... bye all... sry tat im nt blogging as much anymre

2008-12-27T23:18:00.002+08:00

wee~~~ hme sweet hme =x met afew ppl on the way to work 2day... 1st was ms ong the owner of 1 of the donut branches always gime discount for donuts when i used to work in clark quay =x aft met andrew at dhoby ghaut mrt station he was gona collect stuff... then i met stephen at clark quay jumping around like a monkey =x (le kapour) lols...

haha work 2day was fine bah.. the sous chef, chef daniel came back to take a look... lols taught us a few things... then all the staff gt this budweiser hamper which consist of a "jersey", cup, bottle opener and pouch... but i dun have the bottle opener and pouch... im so jealous.. sad lo... well nw im hme le... gg find my angel LOL... bye all

2008-12-27T02:39:00.002+08:00

wa... 2day ended work only at 11pm 1 of the latest for me so far... scalded my hand 2day while i sliced my index finger ytd >< sian lo... well gd thing is im quitting this job nxt wk...

haha as for xmas eve, i shall elaborate mre... went to watch ip man wif teck soon, mervyn (nt kor), teng ping and qi yun... haha had kfc for dinn b4 tat and walked around... lols we kinda counted dwn in the cinema? lols 1140 pm movie HAHA... the shw was great!!! 1 of the best ive watched so far... aft the shw we walked around orchard to take some pics then walked to esplanade and slacked over there haha... talked alot while waiting for the 1st train in the morning... and yes ping and teck soon... i noe u all like the true or dare (true only version) alot haha... hope to see u guys again soon...

2008-12-26T00:13:00.002+08:00

sigh* internet dwn... using my dad's laptop.... cant use internet thex to hse phone zzzzz... reached hme at 730 am went to slp and had to go work le... thx laine for waking me up LOL... celebrated xmas in a cinema with my sec sch frens... haha glad to see u all again... then we thon around town area...

i dun have the confidence to keep u by my side... i dun have the confidence to noe tat i can take care of u... im supposed to fall in love wif any1 only aft 5 yrs but u opened up my heart tat nite... tat 20 hearts for u were nt easy let alone 25... i could do it when i was practising but i couldnt when we were tgt... sigh... i feel so useless... somehw i feel ur ignoring me... isit because ur bz or isit because u dun wana talk to me? i miss u... u were the 1 who open up my heart... pls dun leave me alone... i dun wana be alone...

i wana have some1 to tell me tat they will be there for me when i need them, support me in things i do... will u be tat 1? i hope so...

2008-12-24T14:57:00.000+08:00

wakakak my 4th time making a blog... and yes i did this according to my blog title =) tag me if u have anything to say to help me improve on it <33s the old 1 will be deleted in a few days